You know you've seen heart break when...

So, I've been hanging out with a new guy lately. He seems cool, but then again in my head I'm thinking, "yeah, they always seem cool at first.." We hung out yesterday for the whole day, and I had a lot of fun.

But my faith in guys has gone down, especially since my last ex. I keep thinking with the new guy, "C'mon, randomly stop texting me! Or, wait, stand me up! That would be better! Or maybe you can start seeing another person, and not tell me! Just stab me in the back!! Do it! I'm waiting!" Sad, right?

Judy and I were sitting on the couch this morning, and she told me she was sorry for not giving a shit about the new guy. She said she doesn't trust any of them. She told me that every time my heart gets broken, hers does too, along with my dad's. She said she just isn't interested anymore in hearing about them because she think all of them are going to hurt me. And it's understandable. If I had a daughter who kept dating assholes that treated her like shit, I'd be bitter like her too. But I'm even bitter right now. I'm waiting for him to pull the same shit on me like the others had done to me, and it's sad.

My guard is up. But I want to like him.. and I do.. but I don't trust a word he says...

To those who give a shit

I am alive and well. Got a car, and looking for a job. The job hunt is getting ridiculous, but I have to keep going. But, I really don't feel like writing much. Everything is pretty much the same; guys suck, life's crazy, and getting drunk is kind of fun. Ha! Anyway..

Peace out, Rock on.

Chazzy Chaz Hetfield