Wednesday, May 14, 2008

All I want to do, is rock my feelings away..

Sadly, I am considering moving out of my dad's house. I've tried everything I can to try to make everything work; my relationship with my dad and step-mom. The thing is, both people, my dad and I, have to make the initiative to change things.

I haven't done anything wrong, but I'm trying to make everything work. I don't want to wear a mask to hide everything like my dad wants me to do. I'm tired of the yelling, and cussing I hear from him, to me. My step-mom will act like my step-sister does to her, to my dad.. I'll do something, or my sister will do something that she doesn't like and she goes and tells my dad..

But she doesn't tell him everything.. she only tells him what will make my sister and I look like bad kids, when in fact it's her daughter who is ultimately causing the problems. It's not fair on any level, and I'm tired of being blamed for everything. I have been talking to my dad about things that are going on, but nothing is changing. Nothing will ever change.

My dad will come in yelling at my sister and I when he doesn't know all of the events, and all of the story. Yet, unfortunately my step-mom has him brainwashed. He won't stick up for my sister and I. It's his problem though, and luckily I understand that..

But it doesn't make it okay. I'm kinda at a point to where I'm speechless in a way.

I don't know what to do, so moving out is the only option for me now...

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