Too busy..

I feel like I have no time for the people who mean the most to me.

Chelsea being the person in general.

The last time I saw her was her birthday which was early this month, and before that, it had been over a couple months since I had last seen her. I feel like the worst friend in the world.

All of a sudden, the band had taken a big step into the whole music business; shows, recording, practice, and miscellaneous. I have no time for a lot of things. Family, friends, and other things I enjoy to do.

I've been looking for a job lately, and that will be yet another thing to add to my plate. I need a license, but then I'm sure I'll be driving Britt and Kaitlyn around, even though I won't even have time for that.

To get back to the Chelsea thing, it makes me feel bad that I can't hang out with her like I used to be able to. And it hit me a few days ago, and I almost broke down and cried. I don't want to be replaced like I already feel like I am in a way. I feel like a jerk.

But, I know she understands, but I won't lie, I still feel like the worst friend ever. I can only imagine what it will be like when I move to L.A. with the guys to further pursue our career. I'll only get to see her a few times a year.

She's like the best friend I've ever had, and I feel like I'm killing our friendship.

I hate it. I have no idea what to do.