Hopes and dreams..

Last night, before I went to bed, I was laying in my bed thinking, which is what I usually do right before bed. It helps me sleep better, because I think a lot; I think about everything, and anything. Random thoughts and whatnot.

Well, last night I was thinking about when I become famous with the band. I wonder how I'll act.. Whether I'll be a snob, or if I'll actually act like I said I would; like fame is no big deal. I don't necessarily want to be famous, but I want to get my music out there. "When I'm a rockstar.."

I hope I'm not one of those famous people who don't give a rip about how I treat other people; "I'm better than you.. you're lucky to even been able to lay eyes on me..." Stuff like that.

I want to be the kind of celebrity who lets all my fans add me on myspace, or facebook, and I want to actually talk to them. I don't want a myspace or facebook moderator who talks to my fans for me. That's where fame goes too far. I want to be real. I want to hang out with my fans after shows. Screw autographs! I'm just a regular person! But if I become famous, and a fan wants an autograph, then they're getting an autograph. No questions asked.

I wonder how I'll act if I'm getting bashed on by the paparazzi. If I do, then who cares, but I'll never know until it actually happens.

I don't want to be one of those celebrities who owns 600 cars, just because I can, and own 45 houses.. in different countries.. just because I can. I don't want to flaunt that stuff. I find that quite ridiculous..

So, I wonder how I'll be if it happens.. I hope I'll be cool. I hope I'll be real.