And I was confident.. for a little bit. Right now, I'm still not sure if I want to stay with the band. We had practice a few days ago, and it went okay, but for some reason afterwards, it felt weird.
It didn't help that Christian was being a jerk, and a hypocrite. It's hard to be in a band with him. It's kind of black and white; we either get along great, or not at all. It's frustrating because I try to be open minded, but he doesn't.
I want to get along with him, but it doesn't seem like he wants to get along with me. When this whole thing started, both Austin and Taylor acted sad about the fact that I was thinking about leaving, but Christian acted like it was no big deal.
I just need more time to think about this.. I'll say it again, this is the hardest decision I've ever had to make..
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Carrera, we all know how that boy is... and you know that if you want to stay in the band you just have to accept that. He's not going to change for anyone but himself.
I hope that whatever decision you make is one that makes you feel less "weird".
I love you chaz.
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