Oh my band..

Why must there be drama in my band?

Drama sucks. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it.

If it's not with Christian, it's Austin. That kid, I swear!!! I'm tired of him being a flake. He isn't into the band like he used to be. I can tell. It hurts Christian, Taylor and I too. We're all three trying to keep this together, but Austin's not trying.

He's slacking. I don't know what it is either, and it hurts because I want to get him going again. He's my brother, and I don't want to see him become more and more distant. I don't want to look for another drummer. I don't want to leave him behind, because this band is my life.

I put so much energy into this band, and I don't want it to fall apart because of one person. At least with Christian and I, we end up working our problems out. But Austin doesn't want to do anything about his problems. All he does is use them as an excuse not to practice.

I just want to tell him to man up. I've gone through a lot too, and I don't give up on school, the band, or myself. Sure it hurts, but I'm not going to let everyone else down just because I'm down. That's just plain ridiculous.

Thursday is our designated "band discussion day" and he's not even sure if he's going to go. What a freaking surprise. I just hope things work out, because I'm tired of my outlet being something that stresses me out more.