Brother.

I love you.
I care for you.
I want the best for you.
I'm mad at you.
I want you to see what I see.
I'm proud of you.
I'm always there for you.
I can't stand to see what you're putting yourself through.
I want to save you.
I want to take away your pain.
I want you to talk to me about your problems...

I feel bad for getting angry at you and saying things to you that might have pushed you away, but I felt the things I said needed to be said because I've held the feelings in for too long. I can't stand to see you fall awayat 16 years old. I don't think you will ever have an idea of how I feel.

But, all I can do is be the example for you, and hope that your eyes will open by the will of God, because I realize I can't change you. I can only be the example. I pray for you a lot because you are my brother. I pray that you don't destroy yourself, and that you can put an end to the damage you're doing to yourself before it's too late.

This is why I haven't let you go. People around me keep telling me to just drop you, to let you go your separate way, but our other brothers and I all three haven't done this because we care that much about you.

We don't, and won't judge you no matter what. You have to understand though that we are angry at you for your deceit, and your addictions, but that's the only thing we feel. You are an amazing person, and we want you to know that, and we want you to know that we believe in you. We know that you can, and will go far, but in order for that to happen, you need to believe in yourself. That's all we can hope will happen, because we see it. We want you to see it now.

Your personality in unique in so many ways, and we all adore that about you. Your sense of humor makes you fun to be around. You're smarter than you think you are, but you have doubt in yourself, and that doubt shouldn't be present whatsoever.

I wish you'd just be you again. You aren't who you used to be, and that's what makes us sad the most, because to tell you honestly, your smile melted me on the inside because it was so sincere, and so real; so joyful. I miss that smile. I want you back, because you are so amazing.

I love you brother..

-Chaz