Proof of God.

Before Raw Nerve, or, Excalibur, I was very close to giving up music. I went through many bands with people who I "thought" were serious about music, and shared the passion for music like I do, but ended up doing absolutely nothing.

I know that not everybody is as serious as I am about music, but it was frustrating for me. I no longer wanted to play cover songs, and stuff like that. I wanted a real band who wrote music, and played shows, and took it seriously.

After AOTA, I was really close to giving up music. I searched for bands, and a lot of bands wanted me to be with them, but they didn't do anything. That's when I pretty much put down my guitars, and my bass, and was about ready to move on.

I knew back then that I was young, and shouldn't have given up, but I thought pursuing something different was what was right.

About a year ago, give or take a week or two, my papa, Judy's dad, died. He had given me my first guitar, and that's what sparked my love for music. That was a hard time, because that was about the time that I was ready to move past music to look for something more tangible.

That's when Christian Blauer came into my life.

He contacted me on myspace about starting a metal band, saying he was looking for a bassist. I didn't know him, but by good word from my friend Emmilie, he decided to find me, and contact me about the band. God put Emmilie, an amazing God filled friend, into my life. She also was the first friend that I met at U-High.

Thanks to God, He used Emmilie to guide me to where He wanted me to be; music.

After that, my life changed, and I found my passion for music again. There was of course rough patches along the way to where I am now, but it paid off greatly.

As a band, well, at least Christian, Taylor, and I, we put God first in all of this. I personally prayed about the band, giving it straight to God, leaving it to Him to do what He pleases, and at this point in time, I see that it had, and still is paying off.

Even when Christian left the band, Taylor, Austin and I managed to get through the struggles. But then God brought Christian back to us, and since the "almost" break up, we've become even closer, (with a few rough patches here and there).

Christian and I were talking about the amazing wonders of God last Sunday. We talked about how we have gotten so much handed to us, that most bands have to work extremely hard for, and we believe that's because we've put God in complete control.

We've seen the band grow, and thank God everyday for what the band has brought us all. My relationship with the guys/band has strengthened my relationship with God, because once again, God has shown me how wonderful He is, and that keeps my faith strong.

Lord, I thank You for all You have done. But I especially want to thank You for helping me get closer to You, because You've kept Your word; You never close one door without opening another.