It's been a hard day..

I left the band after Christian made an ass remark about something.. don't want to talk about it, but it pushed me over the edge. I had had enough. It even resulted in my dad walking in and giving Christian a piece of his mind.. of course Christian blew it off like, "whatever.. I don't care about what you have to say.."

I grabbed all the tickets and posters for the 28th show, and handed them to the guys, telling them I couldn't do it anymore. I was freaking crying in front of them, which sucked, but hell, this was a really hard decision.

It has been a real emotional day, and I'm glad it's all over. I talked to Taylor on the phone, and he couldn't understand why I didn't just talk to them about my anger, and opinions. He didn't understand how Christian treated me; him and Christian are best friends, and I told him it shouldn't be a struggle to be friends with somebody.. He just couldn't understand.

I asked Austin's mom to let me know when Austin got home so I could talk to him too.. I take it he didn't want to talk to me, because he would have been home by now..

I just couldn't take it any longer. I loved those guys, and I still do, but this was my breaking point; my point of no return. It's over, and it's time for me to heal, and get over it.

I can enjoy music now, instead of relating music to stress.. I missed music for what it was. I can go back to jamming out just because.

I'm in pain, but I know I made the right decision.