Too much..

I have way too much on my mind right now.. but I want to say something to someone, and get this off my chest:

You are tearing us apart. That doesn't mean I'll give up though; he's more than worth it to me, but this is causing me a lot of heart ache. The thing that bothers me the most is that it has been happening since the beginning. That sucks.

It's been 15 years; can't you enjoy the time with him? Do you really want to push him out of your life like you are? What do you see coming out of this? Because I don't see any benefit whatsoever.

I care for your son more than you'd ever know, and I want to see him happy again, but you're not allowing him to live that way. All he wanted was to be able to get close to you, and build a relationship with you, but you won't let it happen! How could you be so cruel? I can't even imagine being in his spot, having to deal with your shit. Grow the fuck up.

Grow up for your son's sake. Grow up for your girlfriends sake. Grow up for my sake for the love of God.. You're breaking your son's heart, and now my heart is broken. He doesn't want to talk to me, and that fucking hurts.

I'm pretty sure he'd do anything for you. He loves his family. He's told me that many times. But I'm upset because you keep pushing him away. It's effecting your other kids' lives. It's even effecting mine, because his problems are partially mine now. He's shutting down inside, and it's your fault.

Thanks for creating this mess. You should be ashamed of yourself.. you have no idea..