I seemed to have devoured butterflies..

Dalten Billings is his name. And I'm crushing big time on him.

It started off me just thinking he's cute.. and the I told him I thought that, because I had an epiphany and realized you only live life once.. He thought I was good looking too.

He's a musician, likes to go ATVing, and likes video games.
He drinks too, which kinda sucks, but who cares? A.J. did, and so did Steve. I've learned to let it go, without me getting into all of that, which is great, and shows my strength.

We talk a lot, and we started talking the most when I told him I thought he was cute.. which makes me laugh, but who cares?

We both complained that we were single.. and I tried to get the hint across, but it didn't seem like he caught on. But then one day, I said I was tired of being single, and he said to not let it get me down.. and then I thought he didn't like me.

I told him I wanted the guy I liked to make the first move, and it still seemed like he didn't catch on. But then he said, "well, if the guy happens to be me, I just so happen to like you.."

Yeah, I confessed that I liked him after he confessed first.

So then we hung out, which was fun. He greeted me with a hug, and it made me melt.. but I liked it. We hit it off pretty well.

My concert came around, and I told him he should come, and he said that he'd try, but it'd be almost impossible to make it.. but he did.. and it made me melt, again.. He went through hell and back just to see me, and he even got there early.

I actually feel like he does care about me.. unlike with former boyfriends. And the cool thing is, we're not even dating.

Then, yesterday came along.. and he asked me what I liked about him, and I gave him a list.. and then he told me that he really, really liked me.. but there was a catch.

He said that our morals were way different, and I told him that shouldn't mean anything.. I mean, how do we know if it'll work out or not if we don't try?

Because you miss 100% of all shots you don't take..

He drinks, but I told him awhile back that that doesn't bother me. He's also not a virgin, and I told him that doesn't bother me.. but I told him to make a decision.

I told him that I wasn't willing to have sex at this age. I told him to decide if he still wanted to be with me even though I wouldn't, and I asked if he's still interested in me..

He said that he likes sex, but he still wanted to be with me, and that he didn't lose interest in me.. the whole conversation had my stomach in knots.. and even now, I still feel it.. I didn't even eat lunch today because of it.

But this all showed me that there is someone who cares about me, and I'm glad to know he does.

We're trying to figure things out still, like how often we'd be able to see each other, and stuff like that, and I'm hoping things will work out, because it's hard to find a guy who'd give that up for a girl who isn't willing to go that far.

I think I'm ready to show that I've got a good head on my shoulders, and I want to be with him..

He's a sweet guy, and that's hard to come by..